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[May. 13th, 2008|10:41 pm] |
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ive lost my best friend. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2008|03:17 am] |
I left dustin on saturday. I realized that its not normal for him to be angry with me because i talk to other people at parties, and that if he really wants to talk to me he should come over to me and chat, not become angry that i didnt. I cant refer to me as a bitch, and actualy mean it. I cried for over 20 minutes in the car afterward.
that night at gaby's i dreamed that he and i had a beautiful secret pool in the middle of a forest surrounded by bushes. We broke up but met again at the pool, and it was so wonderful that we reunited. I later found out that he had told others about our pool and i left him. he drove across the world while people were chasing him in order to apologize for what he'd done. i woke up and left immediately. But i dont think real dustin would put forth as much effort as dream dustin. after all, he was never the one to call and apologize after a fight.
I did homework while watching a mash marathon. I sleep to escape but they just brough me back to him.
everyone i have talked to has told me i did the right thing. Even impartial judges. they have seen us together, and they have noticed how i have changed, and even though they like dustin, they dont believe i should be with him. But as i lay here crying, i miss him more then i have ever missed anyone.
He is a bitter angry person, and he;s gets jealous and holds grudges. But other than that he's perfect. He cant change, we've faught about this too many times for me to think different. But its SO unfair.
does he not love me enough to change? do i not love him enough to accept him? which should it be? id there someone out there who will always be glued to his side at parties, giving him atleast 51% of her attention?
my skin burns from all the salt.
i want to drive over there |
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[May. 16th, 2007|09:29 pm] |
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hello. my name is daria. i had one of these once. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2006|04:30 pm] |
could it be? yes, it is THE best movie ever made~
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[Dec. 23rd, 2006|12:32 am] |
I've concluded my mother thinks im hideous. Today we went to my cusin's house. Before we did, my mom was sitting at the kitchen table putting on makeup. all of a sudden she says "why dont you put on some too" i was reluctant but she suggested it again so i put on some mascera and eye liner. (i admit, it did make my eyes POP) so later we're at the little drive up bank thingie, and she reaches into her purse and hands me her eyes shadow and says "here, you'll look ever better" wtf,mate?
In other news, i just spent 10 minutes downloading about 5 different versions of "stand by me" it's a really good song! i like the john lennon cover |
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[Dec. 15th, 2006|03:43 pm] |
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This post is dedicated to anna.
so anna, remember how we used to always talk about how fucking creepy eric is? Yeah, well today took the friggen cake! Ahem
"hey daria, can i ask you a question?"
"go for it"
and i fucking quote "since i have a foot fetish, would you ever let me suck on your toes?"
my conclusion? I REALLY neen to fucking move, cause that was wayyyyyyyyyy past acceptable.
so how's everybody? got all your x-mas and chaunika shoppong done? worried about finals? i am a bit, but it's not like that's gonna inspire me to study or anything, |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2006|10:55 pm] |
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Helo everyone. miss me? Nothing all too interesting to post. I've been very emotional lately. I'm blaming it on honey withdrawl since i havent had any in a while. atleast i hope thats why. seriously, i've cried more times this month than i have all year. And i didnt have any reason to. My mom put up the christmas tree today with out me, it really hurt. more than it should have. We bought more honey today, im making tea as we speak. I better be ok soon. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|02:52 pm] |
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It's nice to see which of my friends bothered to wish me a happy birthday. I'm taking it as a subtle hint that you dont want to take my friendship seriously. fine. casual acquaintances it is |
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[Sep. 16th, 2006|02:21 pm] |
wow, they keep sprucing up livejournal.
well, my mom is back. She's benn back for less than 24 hours, and she is already cleaning. I woke up with my hamper missing because she decided to do my laundry. ( i have VERY nasty laundry that no one ion their right mind would want to touch, so it makes me unconfortable when she does it, even when i asked her not to)
Now that i've had a taste of what living with out a clean freak is like, i'm less tolerable to my mom's opsession, i think this is gonna end in a fight sooner or later.
well, it's still nice to have her back, since i love her and all.
although it was nice to play house for these last 2 weeks. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2006|02:46 pm] |
3 Days ago my Grandpa (mom's side) suffered a severe heart attack. He was in bad shape as it was, and in his late 80's. His kidneys stopped working, as did one of his lungs. He was admitted to the hospital in critical condition. He was comatose and connected to a resporater and dialasis. My mother Immediatley called the airlines in order to see her dad one more time, alive. She is leaving for 2 weeks on Sunday, which is the soonest she can, unless she's willing to pay $2,000, which we can't. Unfortunatley that wasn't not soon enough. My grandpa died this morning. My mom accepted his heart attack with a quiet dignity and acceptance. He is very old, and very sick, she knows that. I haven't seen her yet, i don't know how she is going to handle his actual death.
My dad and I are ok. I bearly knew my grandpa, and all i know about him aren't things anyone would be proud of. I feel a bit guilty for not being more upset. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|10:32 am] |
yeah, i was told to stay home today. So i am. I think im gonna spend the better part of this day playing video games.
Wow, I didn't realize how much my caough syrup was doing for me, until i woke up today to it already wearing off, and having nasty, phlegmy caughs. Even though it's prescription stregth, for some reason, it doesn't cause drowsiness. Which is crazy, cause the shit's got codene in it. I guess im just to powerful fo r that stuff to ffect me. Anyway, my point is, that since it didnt make me drowsy, i assumed it didnt do anything, this morning i was proven wrong. the end. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|09:25 pm] |
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I forgot to tell you. When i was at the doctor's, i was measured as 5ft even. Theplace i was at before measuerd wrong. (they used a tape measure and made me stand against a wall. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|02:30 pm] |
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Well, im sick, already. I know most of you guys just don't care and go to school even though you're sick, but i dont. Last time i did, i was sick for a month. This way, i go to a doctor, and it goes away in a week. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|02:53 pm] |
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Well everyone, youre allowed to go to dennys again. Thats right, i quit...already. Pathetic, yes. But i mean, i work because i want to, not have to. so im not gonna put myself through this much stress by choice, not yet. When im 28 and have a morgage and car payment, then yes, but not when im 16 and want a play station 3. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|03:26 pm] |
i dont know about you guys, but i'm not too psyched about waking up an hour earlier than last year. I'm ok now, sine i have built up sleep from summer, but by next week my reserve should be up. I'm expecting the next two year to become a zombie, much like middle school. Sadly, i now have work and a bit of a life, so mid-day naps will no longer be an option.
So for those of you who dont know, I now have a job an IHOP. It's ok, right now im in training. I get to forrlow a girl around and look like a moron. Since im getting trained, im working more hours since they want my training out of the way (2 weeks) which sucks, cause i'm working a lot, and i dont end till ten which is difficult to deal with during the school week. so far, i've worked wednesday and thursday. Today and tomorrow im at jewel for the last time, and then sunday back to ihop. They'll prabably make me work all of next week, if not most of it. I'm glad thats only for 2 weeks though, i cant take this much work for very long. i need rest! And its only been 3 days!
By the way, If i find out one of you guys went to a Dennys on a day im working at IHOP, there will be hell to pay. Thats right, the shit will hit the fan! |
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[Aug. 12th, 2006|11:57 pm] |
So today my mom's friend came over with her 6 year old daughter and her neice. They expected her neice and me to get along and be all friendly, since we've already met once before...when we were 3.
I ended work at 7 and they left at ten. it seemed like a lot loner. We hung out with the adults, and then later went up to my room and had awkward conversation. She speaks polish, but she lives in germany. The little 5 year old was pretty annoying too. But thats expected, she was bored.
i'm gonna try to get a job at IHOP. and if i get it, im FORCING myself to stay there for more than 2 months. atleast 6 |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|08:44 pm] |
having $17 in my bank account.
In other news. Who wants to go see "lady in the water" with me tomorrow night, at 7:30?! |
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[Jul. 31st, 2006|11:45 pm] |
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0->Art III
1->English III
2->us history
3-> chem
4->german III
5->lunch
6->individual sports
7->honers algebra
locker # a526
Looks like Olga and i are ment to be together, yet again.
hey, why is our 0 hours on the botton, if its our first class?
do i have anything with you guys? or am i gonna have to be the loser with no friends? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2006|12:01 pm] |
(to the clash's "i fought the law")
I fought the door, and the door won.
I fought the door, and the door won.
I fought the door, and the door won.
I fought the door, and the door won.
Yesterday at work i walked into a door (i was closing and it hit me in the eyebrow) And since i am such a delicate blower i started bleeding profusley, SO my bosses freaked out. I'm ok, doesnt even hurt. BUT, now i'll have a scar on my eyebrow to match the scar on my nose. yay.
Today the first people looked at our house. They kept talking about how gogrgeous our house is, but i dont think they're gonna buy it. I hope i move to wildwood.
Predator isnt a very good movie. but thats ok.
well, im out of things to say. TOODLES! |
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[Jul. 17th, 2006|09:44 pm] |
i went to the msi concert last friday, which means that i am officially better than everyone on my friends list. Suckers!
in other news, i have my court date on wednesday. i have a feeling that things are gonna end badly. |
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